What is LOVE?

Love is going out of your way for that person. It is patient, kind, not rude or prideful. Love is beautiful, I want to be loved and be shown I am loved. Basically that is everyones desire to be loved. What really is LOVE? When someone loves you they go out of there way to show you that they truly and deeply do love you. I am not talking about love what Jesus did, but the love in a relationship. Going another direction this word brings fear to me REJECTION. Someone pushes me away or leaves me my heart breaks. But that is life people will fail us. It hurts more when the people we love and care so deeply about reject us. Then do we feel love towards that person? NO. Of course there will be forgiveness down the road. Love is beautiful but what are we really willing to sacrifice in a relationship (sacrificial love). I mean love is powerful and those three words are very powerful. I love you is misused as to what I think, when people say it do they really mean it? How do they love me? What will they do show me LOVE?

Overall, the past is over and done with. This is a new chapter, I am letting go. God is healing me. God has shown me love. I need to keep clinging onto God to giving me that confidence in HIM not in myself. I am just CANDACE JOY ROJAS but in Christ, I am a NEW creation. Everyday He has new mercies for me. YES! I believe that God is healing me! MY life is made new. Some days I have hard times, BUT God is my strength and portion. He the one I will cling onto.

"Letting Go"

This semester has brought many challenges. They are good challenges that will help me grow. mature and learn more about myself. Within these challenges God has revealed a lot about me that needs to change. Forgiveness is scary especially when you have held onto hurt, anger, bitterness and confusion for 22 years. I mean for me it is hard to let go because I am comfortable with it, but if I want to change and surrender it to God I need to let go. "Letting Go", those two words scare me, because when I let go there is a an outcome in that outcome its called change. Change will happen, even though I know this change will be good, I am afraid because I have been waiting for this change basically all my life.

I thank God for the people who He has put in my life to help me heal. These two people are amazing men of God. But one person I will like to write about He is my best friend. He believed in me when I didn't believe in myself. He wants to see me healed; healed from sickness and hurt. God has blessed me with him and I thank God for him. I pray that we will grow more and more in God, also establish a more solid foundation in Christ.

Besides, this God is awesome. I believe God has a timing for everything. Right know it is God's timing for me to be healed little by little. In my moments of weakness you give me GRACE to do your will. I believe there is no one else for me NONE but Jesus!